Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)

31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

The Call

Throughout my life I have heard about people being "called" to this or that, not really understanding what that meant. I suppose when I was really little I imagined this big cloud appearing to these people and a loud booming voice from the cloud saying "I want you to be a doctor" or "I want you to move into the jungle". Funny when I think of it now. As I got older I have to admit I was pretty indifferent about the called of my church congregation, that was good for them, but for me, nope, God was not calling me to do anything special.

As I reflect now on the indifference I felt, I realize it was the enemy speaking to me.  Yes, satan does has a booming voice sometimes.  I felt that I was not good enough to be called, or strong enough, or smart enough, basically I wasn't anything enough.  I was focused so much on the me and not the HIM.  The enemy grabbed a hold of that telling me that God would never use a girl like me, I was not like the other girls in my church, I was far from perfect and God only uses the close to perfect if not the absolute perfect to do anything for Him.  In light of these so called truths I was hearing I walked away.  I didn't want to be a hypocrite and used that as the perfect excuse not to go to church or to continue hanging out with my friends from church.  I didn't turn my back on God, I used that aspect in times of sadness or trouble, times when I didn't study much for an exam and needed God to intervene.  I was nothing special.  I had nothing special to offer.  I made choices that reflected this self dialogue (with the help of some well trained demons).

I made choices to drink alcohol, to have inappropriate relationships, conversations with friends had very little to do with God if anything to do with Him at all.  I kept that piece of my heart hidden.  I was not a wild child or anything, don't get me wrong, but I wanted to enjoy my life, I wanted to have fun and believed the lies I was hearing that walking with God wouldn't give me that.  I stand (actually I am sitting, but in my heart I am standing before all of you) before you today to say walking with God, in the will of God is the most exciting place I have been.  He is bringing me to things that I  could never have imagined for myself.  He is showing me how big He is, He is showing me that surrendering is courageous, that lifting my hands to Him and saying "do what you will" is truly an adventure.  He is showing me that it is NOT about me, it is about HIM and He will make me into a world changer, something I wanted to be all my life but never would have been if it were not for Him. 

I write to encourage all of us, we are all called to be world changers.  So, let's change the world people, one person at a time.



Down On The Farm said...

Praise God He uses imperfect people. And thank you for your honesty. Christians aren't perfect, just FORGIVEN!!! If He can use me, He can use anybody. I'm a nobody. But with HIM, I can do anything He wants me to do. Oh, if everyone could just see that a life lived without Jesus is so empty. So many don't want to become Christians because they think you have to give up your life. Well, you do give up your life, but HIS life for me is so much better than any life I could have lived without Him. I am so thankful that I know Him! Thank you for the beautifully wise post. God bless you!

3 Blessings said...

Beautifully stated. Thank you for your recent prayers and encouragement.

Kristin said...

Such a great post!! God is calling alot of us to step out in faith! We can do it!!!

Donna said...

Great post Cheryl! It is exciting to see how God moves in our lives and all that He does. Yes, we desperately need Him in all things. He makes the difference in us. Let's step out and walk in what we have been called to do.

Blessings to you and your family!

Renea Lynch said...

I love this post Cheryl! You are an awesome woman of God and I'm glad to know you through your blog and words! To be honest I know just how you feel too! It's still hard living for Him and wanting Him to take control when other folks look at you like you have two heads now. Why they can't understand how exciting and fulfilled I am by serving Him is beyond me! I'm so happy that you have that feeling. ♥ God Bless!